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The Crucible
Medical College Years
(1973–1982)
If Science College was the spark, Government Medical College, Nagpur, was the full blaze. I walked in through those heavy stone arches in 1973—thin, unsure, and slightly overawed by the place. Nine years later, in 1982, I walked out with an MD and a new kind of confidence: the quiet, workmanlike kind that comes from being tested daily and surviving.
The word crucible sounds dramatic, but it fits. GMC put you under heat and did not apologise for it. There was the anatomy hall with its sharp smell of formalin that clung to your clothes long after you left. There were wards that never seemed to sleep. There were rounds that began early, ended late, and still left you feeling unprepared. Somewhere in that churn came the first moment of real fear—the first time a patient’s life seemed to depend, uncomfortably, on your next decision.
Nagpur in the 1970s was serious about medicine. The competition was sharp, the teachers demanding, and the workload designed to humble you. In Ward 23, between the endless case sheets and the exam panic, I began to understand what the textbooks could not teach. Medicine was not only about naming a disease. It was about reading people—what they said, what they avoided saying, what they carried in their eyes and posture. It was also about learning the rhythms of a public hospital: its hierarchies, its overcrowding, its small acts of kindness, and its daily compromises.
By the time I finished in 1982, I had stopped thinking of myself as a “bright student” and started thinking like a doctor. The change was not sudden, and it was not heroic. It happened quietly. And just when I thought the hard part was over, Sevagram was waiting, with its dust, its distances, and its own lessons.